2019, Video, 5 minutes 25 seconds

What does it mean to make art once you become a mother, to chose to leave your child to create something that may never be seen? What does becoming a mother mean for your identity? Who even are you anymore? You’re everything I feared becoming. I always knew you’d be like this… My old self and my new self battle it out in a verbal show down.

With visual reference to Tracey Emin’s video art work, The Conversation, 2000, and Conversation With My Mum, 2001, in which Emin explores the decision as an artist and woman to not have children, In Conversation Between My Old and New Self, I explore the less spoken about –but no less complex and contentious – reality of the effect of having children on the self and identity of a female artist.